I don't really feel like writing, but once you start something, I think you need to follow through.
An (ongoing) event has occurred that has drastically changed my life for the worse. My spell of about 2.5 weeks of intuitive eating was broken because I just did not know how to cope. I saw my therapist today and she has given me some tips on how to live and deal with this horror in a way that does not involve binge eating. Unfortunately this event has taken me away from my therapist as I need to move back home with my parents in a different city, but I hope to continue sessions with her by phone for at least the next month. Probably next year when I move cities I will start with another therapist (not because my current one has done anything wrong, on the contrary, but it is an 8 hour round trip between my city and the clinic) who will continue to help me deal with this as well as working on those background issues like anger and body image/self-esteem.
It will be a long process I'm sure, but life is precious and I am just not willing to devote any more time than is necessary to feeling bad about trivial things, treating people poorly, or holding back from life. My own life may not be long but I am determined to make the next few years good ones. It's about quality of life, not length of life.
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