Health At Every Size

I'm sure that many if not most people who have begun to look into intuitive eating have come across the concept of Health At Every Size. It basically means what it says - it doesn't matter what your weight is, as long as you are eating your share of vegetables and exercising regularly, then you are healthy.

As mentioned in the first post, this is a difficult one for me to reconcile, when I have my other health specialist telling me that I am 30kg overweight and will never menstruate without medication, let alone have kids, if I don't get my weight down. I've plugged in the calories that I eat on an intuitive day and find to my horror that it sits at 1700-1800, well above what I think weight loss calories look like (1200-1400 - I'm pretty short). I know that some people are bigger built or whatever but it's pretty clear that I am carrying excess weight, so it feels ridiculous to say that I'm healthy as I am, even though all my tests have come back with great numbers.

So the way I rationalise it to myself is this - diets don't work for me, and I'm not going to lose weight any other way. That leaves HAES and IE as my only path. I know that you are supposed to give up the notion of weight loss completely and accept whatever weight you're at at this moment, even if it does change, but that scares me a lot - to be honest I don't want to look like Golda Poretsky, as horrible and unsupportive and ignorant as that sounds. I'm sure Golda is much happier with herself than I am, but I have to accept how I feel about it, and work on combating that view and becoming more body-positive.

Hopefully I'll look back on this in six months and my views will have genuinely changed...